Content Preview: rss
3 days ago
It has been a while since I last wrote anything on my space. There is a reason that I revisited the site after such a long time. Last time I talked to my mom, she asked me about the pretty American boy I'm dating. I was confused at first because I haven't shown anyone John's picture and he is hardly a boy. But mom swore that a distant cousin told her at a wedding they both attended, saying that she saw intimate pictures of us on the internet, that it can't be mistaken that we are dating, that the white boy is very very attractive. It hit me right then that it was Matt, my beloved past, she was referring to. Knowing how careless and proud I was, I probably announced our love to the whole world. I decided to shut down the space. I haven't used it for a while. It's no use to let all my relatives on to my past personal life. So tonight, I signed back on. I was going to pay a tribute to the past and then shut everything down. But the first thing I saw after signing ...
308 days ago
It is scary to think that I would ever became this old, old and cynical. Yet, I'm relieved. Enough shit has been dealt to me maybe life will leave me alone for a while. The least I've learned how to handle all those curve balls. Yet, I'm confused. Maybe I'm skilled enough to bounce the balls back, but do I know how to challenge the challenger? Yet, I'm optimistic. If I've survived life this well making all the random choices, there is no reason to doubt that things won't work out on their own in the future. Maybe 29 is the year that I take charge, that I say to the past enough is enough, that I march onto my dreams and demand nothing less in return.
596 days ago
How I could be the suject of other's affection while you are mine. But I refuse, to be bullied by my own emotions, I demand an answer, an resolution, I'm afraid silence isn't good enough, I'm afraid this is not good enough.
600 days ago
is so intense and real, it's almost comical. How would I expect anyone not to think that I'm being ill dramatic. Even I want to laugh at myself. Rejection is part of life, it's all about freewill.
