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90 days ago
No one else has this power. Maybe it’s a gift, Maybe it’s a curse. I don’t know what it is. Just know that the feeling of wanting to die is not wanted by anyone else. Can it be that I am the only one. If so, I really need a sign of the end. Or if there is an end, I need to know when it’s going to be. Wanting to kill myself only brings the efforts of what this power is closer to its purpose. There is a possibility that killing myself would only elongate this gift or power. So the decision has been made, killing myself is not the answer. If there is an answer to this, it wont show itself.
101 days ago
cute. my hearts love. my missing smile. a light when I need it. resolution to any issue. my other half. meant for me. my life. a shining star. a warm October. no more no less than what I would ever want you to be. my inhibition. fireworks in my head. the only thing keeping me alive. as if Tina Turner first steps on the stage. the sense in me. the hope I’ve been waiting for. the good that stops the bad. the funny that no one else can be. who I call to hear I Love You. the only thing I will ever need. the humor that’s inside me. the musical instrument I will always play with. FOREVER MY GC
132 days ago
Standing there watching her go Knowing you could not do anything to prevent it Knowing that if you had the power to change it you would Feeling as though you were in a horrible dream That it could not have gotten any worst When you were told that she was coding Knowing you would have to put your self together and keep it cool Going through this alone is like being killed by Jack the ripper 100 times People not understanding that grief for me is like a sheet of film falling from above and slowing things down So the trauma can slowly seep inside my head and never leave Maybe if I had made a deal with heaven to keep her here Drama after the trauma is like a rollercoaster of problems one after another She is in heaven right now That I know
209 days ago
In memory of anyone you know who has been struck down by cancer or is still living with it. Please Pray Please take at least 10 minutes of your time where ever you are or whatever you are doing and stop to be silent for those who’ve been silenced them selves. These minutes are not a requirement to take, but no matter where you are. Stop to be silent for how ever long you think you should for those who’ve been silenced by cancer. This is not just for the memory of those who’ve been silenced by cancer, but also for the ones who continue the fight against it. For those who’ve silenced by cancer and taken from us, please think of things you can be doing to remember the good times they had on this planet. Because I am sure and know that they would be doing the same if you were gone. NO MORE TEARS, NO MORE PAIN. Keep running them gears for those fighting the fight. Keep the lights bright for those who’ve been slain. These times are ...
230 days ago
Grabed from behind like some kind of fiend. Twisted arms so that escape was futile. Onto the wall both bodies went. Luck bones are strong as titanium. Too bad no evidence is left. An attempt at a scream is not possible. The knife on the throat was a real classic. Will to fight was not there. Could have been something related to the mind. Will never be shown. Felt like I was watching what was happening. Along with the words I heard. 'You fucking piece of shit' Probably the only words I remember. Recalling what happened after is blank. Everytime I try, I lose more time. Felt like it wasnt me who that was done to. Like a dream but with the pain. Explaining that needed a cover up. Decided was best to have it kept short. The unexplained is the self-explanatory. If the shortness of the breath feeling the knife on the neck, knowing if spoken would be killed. Could have turned around and kicked and killed. Then it would really seem like a monsters ball. Wishing a sweet fix for this memory ...
