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11 days ago
it's been almost 2 years since i wrote my last blog. i did a review of my life in the year that was 2007. and now it's mid-November in 2009 and i guess it's time to reflect on this year. i can't say this is a good year. i have had a lot of things happening this year. experienced many new things (both good and bad). so many things that have happened that i don't feel like to list them all. suffice to say that recent events have left me feeling kind of sad (almost depressed). i wish i have more good news to report. maybe i am just looking at this past months with tinted glasses but i do not think this has been a good year. i just hope that next year will be better. i feel like i am almost at the bottom of something, at the nadir of my life so far? i am not writing this to alarm any of my friends. i won't do anything drastic. i remember writing a status on FB that had a few people worried. i am sorry about that. it was the state of my mind. but i won't do anything to harm myself ...
699 days ago
there are 2 days left for the year. i can't say it's been the best year in my life. in fact, it's been kind of a bad year. i just hope it will be better in 2008. surprise of the year is that a few friends have departed from earth. when i learned about the first one, i was in shock. and it didn't end with one. may they find peace. there were also friends who left the country maybe permanently. luckily we are still in touch. it is also a year of heartaches and betrayals. people you thought you can count on were really there. it hurt at first but i learned to numb these pains. it is also a year of obsession. obsession with shoes and clothes! (when did i start to care so much how i look? maybe it is a real sign of getting old....) obsession with certain TV series and anime series. (how the dialogues can evoke so much emotion lately? and some shows are not even good shows!) other obsession...maybe i have an obsessive personality. but it is not all a bad ...
752 days ago
November sees the departure of a few friends from Canada. Some of them are leaving permanently, while others for a short time (but can still be a few years). It is strange that all of a sudden these people I know would be out of my life all at once. Some of them move for work, some move for more personal reasons. I do admire their courage to face changes and the unknown. They are much braver than me. I wish my friends safe journeys and a bright future in wherever they are. I will miss you guys
764 days ago
the day started out innocently. i got up later than i wanted and got to the gym later than i would like. i managed to finish working out and get to work not too late. a regular day for the most part, despite being a cooler day than the the earlier in the week. then no reason, no warning, i felt sad. overwhelming emotions that overtook me. i can feel that if given the chance i would break out in tears.... i still have no explanation for the sudden change in my mood. but it was so noticeable that i was not happy my co-workers asked me if i were ok. when i was asked, i jokingly said maybe it's "andropause"... it wasn't that good to feel so sad. i hope that is just a weird mood swing...
879 days ago
According to this, i look like Kanye West the most...David Hasselhoff?! at least there is two asians in the mix...
