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20 days ago
I haven't written in a while. I have a special blog on blogger that I use. But for some reason I felt like writing here. hmm.... Do you ever feel beyond happy one minute and utterly miserable the next? I sort of feel that way but I'm not sure why. I'm so much better than I was a few months ago crying and dragging myself around the house over a guy. A big, fat, loser guy to be exact. But now I'm back to my normal hyper self and I feel so happy sometimes. It's like I have happy fits and I'm just crazy like a pot of boiling happiness that spills over onto other people. But then sometimes I feel empty, like the pot has just disappeared. I begin to wonder if I'm alone. I know I'm not alone. There are people all around me, but I feel lonely like there is no one who will be mine. I feel like I'm entertainment for others to enjoy but at the end of the day, they have their lives together with someone who understands them and wants to stay with them forever, and I am just alone. It's strange ...
