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684 days ago
And as nice as MSN is to me, I probably need to get myself on board a proper blog site to deal with all the hell that comes in on a daily basis. In the meantime, since I am a wonderful story teller, I give you the news of the past few months in a rather disorganized mesh of consciousness. At some point in my contract with BC Hydro, all hell broke loose and I slowly went to destroy any hopes of continuing to work there. My ability to network had gone so horribly wrong that I ended up getting in trouble for networking. On top of that I had a bright idea from my supervisor that I should pee on the floor. Why pee on the floor? I guess that's just the way things are done at Outreach. I was told we'd get blamed for it whether we did or not. Why? Because BC Hydro Outreach staff are the "face of BC Hydro" but not really much more than that. So jump forward and I'm looking for work and trying to focus on a definitive career path. It's very hard to do so when ...
765 days ago
Tammy spent the night at my place last night I am afraid of WWIII happening at her house right now. From the way things look, she could be at war for a long, long time. I need to vent something out but I don't know what it is. Just a few nights ago, I was ballistic on my own wall because I was pissed off at my parents. Frustration of living at home, but there's no way the pain I feel is anywhere or frustraion, I should say, is any where near as bad as hers. On top of that, the downer of a person I know who decided to tell everyone she's got cancer, so bad that they can't do chemo or surgery to remove it. Why? IT's in her spine. And another girl has cancer there in the same location. Wrapped around and around so you can't even get rid of it. This thing called cancer sucks. Did you know that it was called cancer because in the old days, when it broke through the skin, it short of looked like a crab, so that's how cancer got its name. one of the first forms of cancer is from ...
767 days ago
I thought I had become pretty good with anger management in my life, but lately, I've just been set off by all sorts of stupid things that have no logical connection. I just fly off the handle and go nuts. I try to calm myself down, but i am finding it harder to do so. back when I was in Japan, I don't think I ever had a problem dealing with things. Maybe back here in canada, i feel pressured. what kind of pressure? I'm not even sure. I feel trapped and it's all so damned permanent here at home. When I know something is fleeting, I can take the time to really enjoy it because I know it won't last long. I want to build my life here. life is short, but to build whatever i want, I have to make some permanent sacrifices. I can't be going around doing what I want anymore because it won't get me what I want in the future. This fucking bullshit do stupid things now so you can relax in the future really sucks. maybe the root of all of this is just having to live at home ...
809 days ago
So I've been busy trying to do weird things with my life and this September, a whole bunch of new things is going on. I rarely write about it now but I guess I should inform anyone who still reads this journal what's been going on. Well, I have a new job. It's a temporary position, but I hope it gets me somewhere. I'm working as a Power Smart Representative for BC Hydro. I've finally found work that pays equivalent to what I was making in Japan. I guess it only took me 6 months or so. THat's not a bad start I guess. Along with that, I went off and bought some new underwear. The complaint from my new girlfriend (well, she's not that new, we're approaching our 5 months now, but in a time scale of a human life, it's new) was that my underwear was holey and needed some mending or buying of new ones. So I did that. i went off to buy new underwear and I'm glad. More comfortable and lack of holes. I'm writing this on a new computer as well. My other computer, ...
844 days ago
I am in pain, aching, dull pain from the surgery on my wisdom teeth. This is a rare treat for my body because I haven't had alcohol in about 3 months which means my body craves some kind of chemical to give it a funny boost. Unfortunately, I feel quite sober even though I had some aenathesia however you spell that and I was knocked out and said "Tiger" before hand. I dreamt about tigers and woke up with the cute nurse calling me cute and telling me she's married with children. Oh well, it's it's a big loss. I am happy with my tammeroony. Or something like that. Watch as it extends beyond comprehension. So so so in the microphone. Alakazam and the broken toes! Sitting in a tree Takin' a pee Forgettin' all the words to my pretty lil song Dancing on the rainbow sill, eatin' some slog Fire fire fire fire I gotta eat my ants. Five years later, and I'm lost without pants. Fire fire fire fire I gotta jump ship. Five years later, and ...
