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1091 days ago
Another day is spent without you next to me, Another day is spent waiting, Hoping, praying, for a day that may never come.
1115 days ago
A while ago I heard Tim is leaving for Melbourne. The news came as a shock, though in a way I guess I wasn’t really surprised. I have always known Graduation will mark the end of a phase, a time of changes. Tim’s leaving is only the first sign of change, an indication that this time has arrived. Having been a student for as far back as I can remember, this time of change brings to me a mixture of feelings. So many things that I was once so certain of now I am doubtful, while many things that were once undetermined now appears so much more assured. I look at myself, and see the ocean of potential that I once had as a child, the limitless dreams and the endless possibilities, a universe of people I could have become that has since slowly dwindled to the person I am now. Often I admire myself for the qualities I have gained as a person, yet more than all else I am also disappointed that I have not become someone more influential, more excellent, more ...
1150 days ago
Ok... yes.... fine.... I know I haven’t done this in a while…. I’ve been lazy, but I’ve also been busy. For those of you who don’t know me and are somehow drawn here by forces unknown, I am in my final semester for my Bachelors degree from the University of Auckland. And so consequently, and justifiably, I have been busy. The twenty-fifth day before my first exam has just come to an end. An estimation estimated to the best of my estimating ability of 134 hours of study and assignments is required before then, followed by another 20 over the 8 days after. I decided to write a final entry before the commencement of my preparation, funny how I always manage to procrastinate before the most difficult or tedious of tasks. Here, in my room, at 1 in the morning, this is the result of my procrastination. For those who haven’t yet realised, I am here purely for reasons of procrastination, and do in actual fact, have nothing to write about. Well I do but…. nah…. ...
1196 days ago
Today was an easy day. I finished all my classes by noon. I went to the gym, did what I could, then realised I have another 10 minutes before my bus would arrive. I was walking around contemplating what to do when I was pleasantly surprised by a good friend whom I don't see very often. We exchanged our greetings and enquired about each other’s day. The time passed quickly and it was only a moment before we exchanged goodbyes and went our separate ways again. The encounter was brief, the conversations were simple. There was nothing to it. Yet somehow everything was more colourful and the world became brighter as I walked out of the building on my way home. I found myself carrying a subtle smile throughout the rest of the day. Such is the quiet, genuine joy that I experienced today. I am thankful for this feeling, I am thankful for this day, I am thankful for this good friend.
1210 days ago
Haven't written in so long. Been busy. Not too busy to write, but too busy to think. It's a frightening thought how even at my age, life can sometimes fall unsuspectingly into a pattern, a cycle, where I can go on for days, or even weeks living out a mindless repetition of life's events, without stimulus for original thought, nor time to reflection upon the meaning of what I do. Is this a sign of growing up? Or is this a sign of growing old? Is this a sign of losing the curiousity, the yearning, and the passion for life which makes it so worth living? Haha, so late. More assignments and reports tomorrow :) Will have to finish this another time...
