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1 days ago
*~Why Are You There Again?~* I hate to see you always returning To that unfortunate place. That discomfort in your heart shows through As a tear upon your face. You thought he had filled the holes inside And that your heat was whole again But already, fractures and cracks reappear As he leaves you out there in the rain. If his words diminish and he walks away Who can blame you for feeling like this? You can sense things changing everyday... I remember that familiar loneliness. He promised to make your wish come true But that dream appears impossible for you. *~That Feeling~* Was i wrong to fall into another dream? Why is my heart being punished? I pulled out the courage to believe... Has the feeling already vanished? This dream began differently from the other But it's slowly becoming the same... What reason is there for making me suffer? Why do I have to go through those feelings again? There's no getting used to being ignored- Though I lived with it ...
102 days ago
*~Reasons~* There's a reason for every forced smile And I'm getting close to finding that answer. There's a reason I've been through these trials. What doesn't kill me will make me stronger. I strive to perfect that illusion I wear While searching for a way to break this spell. For believing in something that wasn't there, I hate myself for how quickly I tripped and fell. It's not worth crying over my own pain. I'd rather save my tears for someone worthy. Though I admit my heart won't be the same Because someone came and almost freed me. I want to show him I can truly smile Because the next time we meet may be the last. To appear invincible, that's my style. I want to be able to laugh at what has passed. There's a reason for everything though it seems so unfair. I came so close this time to finding someone who cares. ♫ ~Elaine~ ♫
114 days ago
*~ Keep Wishing ~* If I keep staring at the sky Will I see a shooting star? If I maintain the dream to fly Can I magically grow wings? All these moments spent in wishing Gnaws at this slowly fading heart. How many hours were spent sighing, waiting? Can you hear how steadily my melancholy sings? I'm tired but I dare not close my eyes. For the chance of a wish, I can't look away. There's a lesson behind those nights I cried. If I continue to wish it'll come true someday. Even though the stars don't shine brightly for me I don't know how to give in- I dream automatically. ~Elaine~
139 days ago
*~ Smile ~* Selfishly she tries to hold on to each moment--- Each moment in which she can laugh effortlessly. If she continues to smile through hours of silence Then that one dream can also dissolve gradually. I wish there was a way for me to help her But she misunderstands and twists what I say. She hides behind that cheerful exterior... "I am happy," she tells herself everyday. She has accepted her inability to win This battle between the heart and mind. Everything she does ends up being for him--- In spite of herself she can't leave it behind. Are people like her...rare in this time and place? Most people can't see through that smile on her face. ♫ ~Elaine~ ♫
141 days ago
*~ A Song ~* There's a song drifting through my window And I waver between dream and reality. Would anyone care to hear my solo Accompanied by a make-believe symphony? We can never experience total darkness Yet we sometimes forget the smallest light. It is not possible for me to be emotionless But my heart no longer feels like taking flight. No one can escape without telling a lie--- I try to rationalize what I do for that person. I waver between really saying good-bye And following the path to my self-destruction. Through the window a song reaches my ears--- The same haunting tune follows me through the years. ♫ ~Elaine~ ♫
