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319 days ago
well, I know there are some of you that wanted an end to my story. it has been a rough year for my family but it seems to be healing little by little. Tom and I agreed to separate. I had to follow my heart and my heart was and always will be with D. The kids have had a rough go of it but Tom has been amazing even though I know he is hurting too. I know that I have done a terrible thing to an amazing man. He proves how amazing he is everytime we are with our children. He even acts kind to D in front of the kids. They have learned to accept him and are starting to think its kind of cool to have 2 dads. Tom has started dating a very nice lady. Even though, it is weird to see him with someone else, I know I cannot have both of them. There are some members of my family that have chosen not to speak to me but they will come around. My relationship with D is still as exciting as ever and there are days we have to work at it but who doesn't. I wake up every day and look into his ...
1101 days ago
I guess I haven’t really written lately and I know you have all been wondering what has been going on. I haven’t written for a couple of reasons. First because I don’t feel like being judged for the life I am leading right now. I have been lying to my husband about my love for another man and I have been cheating on him. I have become that person that meets her lover in the afternoon for a quickie, sneaks out at night with tales of shopping and pedicures to steal a few extra minutes with her lover. I am ashamed of myself but I can’t seem to help myself. I have come to the conclusion that I am leaving my husband and following my heart. It has always been with D and it has always led me back to him. I cannot deny what we have and I know that it will never go away. The other decision I have made is that I will not ruin this Christmas for him or for my children. They will wake up one last Christmas morning to both of their parents before we start a bitter ...
1142 days ago
I guess I haven’t updated much lately but I have been very busy and very frustrated and very confused, etc. Most of you have been over to D’s page by now and some of you can sympathize with how hard this really is for me. They are both wonderful men with their own qualities that I love. I know that I am not the first person to leave her marriage for another man, I am not the first woman to break up a home but I think our situation is a little different. See, I left Tom once for this man, and he came back to me. I think it will kill him to know that I left him again for the same man, the man that has been haunting our marriage, our relationship from day one. The next part of my story will probably get some people up in arms and get me some bad comments, but I am writing it, its part of my story and it happened. D and I have been emailing eachother for a little while now and he constantly asks me to meet up with him for a drink, dinner, whatever. I have been saying ...
1170 days ago
I know, I know – its been so long since I have posted that you guys have either lost interest in my life or just assumed one thing or another. I have been so busy with work and school starting that I haven’t had a chance to breath, so posting has been up in the air. I have however kept up on reading all of your sites. So, I guess you all want to know what I did with that letter. I do still have it, it sits here in my desk at work. Have I called him – no. Before you all get too proud of me, let me finish. He somehow got a hold of my email address and he sent me an email. It was surprising at first. Caught me off guard but I read it and it was much of the same as the letter. It took me a couple of days to email him back. I tried to make him understand that we had tried to make it work, not only as teenagers but as adults a few years back and it just wasn’t in the cards for us. I tried to make him see that I made my choice, that I have a family that I ...
1207 days ago
Today I am taking a day off from talking about myself and my problems. You see tomorrow in my ella’s sixth birthday and I have been thinking about that little girl all day. I still have to sit and compose my letter to her which I write every year on her birthday to remind myself and someday her of all the wonderful things she has accomplished at the age of 5. Today I am taken back six years to the day before she was born. I woke up around 4:30am with some amazing stomach cramps. Being that I have colitis, I naturally thought that I was just having some pains. Around 8:30 am, I went to the washroom and noticed some stuff that isn’t usually there (sorry to any guys that read this). I decided to call the doctor and he assured me that all was well and to get myself to the hospital. I called Tom and off we went. From the time we got there, it seemed that nurses and doctors tried everything they could to get my ella to come out. I was induced TWICE, ...
