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300 days ago
You can do whatever you want to do alright I am so demoralised by your actions Being adviced by others can be so insulting to you You just love to shoot me to satisfy your ego No matter how you deny your sacarstic remarks; its still a lie You have no idea how to reconcile ... expect others to make the first move Will never win my symphathy if ill words and attitude what you shower to me and call it love 3 bigs words passed my lips in times like these Dont think anyone can perservere to battle this drama and still stay focused Which is why it will end with me ... i wont allow anyone else to get hurt
331 days ago
I am some kind of complicated person who is not able to follow the voice of my feelings.. Tend to usually behave in a way so as to be liked by the others... Often to swallow my feelings, bad or good because i believe that if i express them, then maybe none wiil be by my side... when everything goes absolutely peacefully with the others, could i be at war with myself? I have every reason to believe this cos its been proven. People are not ready to accept a bipolar Arai. If she takes a stand and starts a fight in the name of justice; everybody would stay a distance after that. She can be quite a pushover for she knows she can hurt people (literally). Start to shout and scream for the sake of winning an arguement. If she stays quiet ... must be her fault; look she's guilty already. If im bent to clearing my innocence im guilty for any unnecessary chatter. True that everything seeks a balance for inner peace But what if that inner balance is like running on a blanket of ...
331 days ago
I am climbing my way to the top Even it takes me a lifetime to achieve it Deep down i would like to crush all those who have stepped on me before Those who never saw me as anything but being a nuisance I yearn to command; still a friend still human I dont get the respect i deserve My goal is only one; and that one has already destroyed my sanity Thank god that i was born stubborn If i wasnt; i would have broken down, ran away, severed ties or worst case scenario ..... suicide Even if it wasnt my fault; certain words exchanged would make it my guilt to bear I feel like hitting something ....
391 days ago
Speechless ... I became totally speechless Due to an overzelous expectation im shark bait again You might say that its a test of loyalty Out of the shouting, screaming and confusion ... i said something that leads to the miscommunication right now What i heard was a different thing thats why i said what i said While on the other hand she took it in another direction Allegations states that i dont give my family the priority Do I? All these started because of creative request Do i dare to shout out loud and swear that i hate this gift of mine? It certainly is the magnet of bad relations Im doing art request for my work, home and friends I pend my client's art piece for 4 months already ... all they can do is wait My sis's shoes if i got inspiration i'd do it immediately sometimes ... Its all about the inspiration I dont do pieces if i dont have the mood for it, no use doing something half heartedly My buddy asked me of what should i do ...
399 days ago
So easy for you to whine about other peoples mistakes "Oh my goodness i dont know when is this person going to change" Um last i checked youre no angel either ... we hate your annoying grumbling and bipolar character more I hate it when you make me mad, cos thats when you will too and turn the house upside down on purpose All the more i hate to be close to you For im at peace when im spending alone time to myself I know im not happy and im not sad Im just angry when things escalade into cruel plays Like the quote says "Its all fun and games until somebody gets hurt" I know i told you before where it hurts Obviously nobody took me seriously Haha here haha there "ah you gotta be kidding me" Now since the signs are more evident, you took a step back astonished "Oh so now you listen"? Too late ... much to my dismay i cannot stop my sadistic reactions The more your concern compared to your previous neglect i will ...
