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8 days ago
I want to thank Jenna from the bottom of my Heart that she made this for me from her Heart. Made me cry but that was fine as Syd said he would watch over me and this will remind me he is just doing that, Bless her Heart and God for using her as an instrument for Syd from afar. Sharing with you to see want a BEAUTIFUL JOB SHE HAS DONE.
36 days ago
Dear friends, I hope you all having a good day. Believe it or not the sun decided to shine, sure brings spirits up. Just to keep you updated on how I am doing or what I am doing to get through this grief, which in plain English sucks, but in time it will take. I AM HAVING A GRIEF COUNSELOR FROM HOSPICE, COMING OVER TUESDAY, THE PAPER THEY SENT ME REALLY TELLS ME ALL THE FEELINGS I AM GOING THROUGH ARE NORMAL AND I SEEMED TO FIT MOST FEELINGS THEY described I'M NOT GOING CRAZY, HAVE TO HAVE THE KIDS READ THIS SO THEY'LL UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON WITH ME EVEN THOUGH I MAY ACT NORMAL TO THEM. HARD TO EXPLAIN IF YOU NEVER BEEN THROUGH LOSING A LOVED ONE AND SHOULD HELP THEM AS IS ME. I couldn't believe it many of the feelings fit me to a T, now to work through it. Some friends want to help and in some ways not ready for to jump in as I am finding out, not to rush like nothing happened, just give me space. Good to know I am not losing my mind after reading the letter they sent me. ...
54 days ago
Dear Friends, Sorry I have not been up to blogging, I stopped over to Beth's and commented to her more then a comment and thought I would share here, as I may not remember what I shared with her and also want to thank all my friends here for their comforting comments, meant so much to me, some did privately, so know you are all in my sisterhood as I know you feel that way too. I know it will get better, but need the time to grieve and not hold back as I have been doing. Going for a flu shot Thurs. with a friend, Maureen to our Dr. who we love so much, haven't been there since Syd's passing, this will be hard as she liked him so much. Have to take a pill for sure that day. Every wed. another young friend Sherrie, who is a LPN, has me over for dinner, we spend the day doing different stuff, she got me crocheting again, she is so much like me an Angel she has been for me. I keep getting cards most every day and that brings me to tears to read their heart felt words and memories they ...
73 days ago
~Today I picked up my Syd's black box with his ashes, I held him close as I cried. He will lay beside my bed tonight as I am still ingesting my loss. To lose a best friend as he and as spoiled as I is harder then I ever imagined, I do feel his presence but physically not there, I am lost with out his touch and assuring words, but in my memory for ever more he'll be. In time I know will become easier, but time it will take, for how long no one ever really knows, when you find the love we had since I was 17 and he 20. No other could take his place, he made me ever so happy and I smile as I remember how we loved to banter with each other even to the end. I still feel his embrace and kisses with our tears mingled as we said I love you and we shell meet again when God calls me. I feel his hand as he squeezed my hand tightly after he blessed himself and was gone from our world. I kissed him over and over and said I love you forever as he had said on my Anniversary card, love you forever. He ...
78 days ago
MY SYD DIED TONIGHT ABOUT 10;15. THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR PRAYERS, HE WENT IN PEACE AND WITH NO PAIN. WE MADE IT TO OUR 53 YEARS THIS LAST TUES. WE SPENT ALL OUR TIME TOGETHER IN HIS LAST MOMENTS, SPOKE OF OUR UNDYING LOVE WE HAD TOGETHER. HIS MANY FRIENDS AND FAMILY CAME TO SEE HIM, AS WE'RE NOT HAVING A FUNERAL, A PRIVATE MASS LATER. HE WILL SURLY BE MISSED BY ALL, SPECIALLY ME, GOING TO BE A HARD ROAD AHEAD, BUT WITH HIM WATCHING OVER ME AS HE SAID HE WOULD, I FEEL SAFE. BUT WILL MISS HIM SO terribly.
