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794 days ago
Slowly I opened my lethargic eyes while in my mind I am expecting same old routine which goaded my will to go back to sleep again. But a mysterious scent abstracted my senses and so I lazily opened my eyes. A bizarre of emotions hurriedly passed through my veins when I saw rose petals all over my bed. I was in deep thoughts and so my optic nerves responded to my vagueness. My eyes rest in front of my door and there I saw the culprit. He was sweetly smiling as he affectionately stares at me while holding a tray. Certainly, I can smell the aroma of my favorite café vienness with a hot honey dip pancakes. Yeah, he brought me a breakfast in bed. There are so many questions I want to ask him but I wanted to savor every minute of this moment. How I missed him and I wanted to hug this man whom I ever dreamed of to be with. He placed the tray on the desk beside my bed as I started to talk but he stopped me while he took my hand and gave me a diamond studded ring. Tears started falling ...
794 days ago
In a week time it'll be the end of September and I thought I have already forgotten the past and yet it is still haunting me until now. As a matter of fact, I fear this month coz there is this feeling of paranoia that something so unexpected will happen again. I never liked residing in an emotional trance ever since this remorseful love story happened. Cliché, yet like everybody else I have also a fair share of a regretful love story.It was this month when I started to believe that forever does not really exist. Happily ever after will always remain as a tale and it is not existent in the real life. I became so inferior and felt so insecure about everything. I grieved for a long time and it was etched in my heart that there is really no true love and men are all born to be polygamous. It is their uncontested ego which lulls them to the boulevard of infidelity. My apology to my unfair way of thinking yet I thought that way for over five years now. Whew, it's been five years and ...
794 days ago
Déjà vu, this dilemma was been my situation a year ago, same month and day. I was been offered a very tempting job abroad with a very good salary, a brand new car, a decent flat and an unlimited supply of food, pretty much better than my current job at the moment. Last year, I declined the offer because of the theory of fairness and common good. Like what I always say, I can't stay in an emotional trance for a long time. And now, it is all coming back, I am all here again! If I will go back I could buy anything I want. My long time dream to have a brand new car will just only be a snap. I could build a house for my parents and can even make a flyover (lol!) coz these greedy relatives of mine won't give us the right of way we were asking. But I know if I will go back, it entails a lot of sacrifices. A good relationship might be shaken and there'll be possibilities that we won't end up together. It is a very difficult task… I hope I could make up my mind sooner. If you ...
794 days ago
"Been there, done that", an adage adopted from a lawyer friend. I never realized what does the adage really mean, it was just days ago when my neurons fired and transmitted a very evocative realization. It's been a year now when I left a place where all cravings in your mind can be grabbed in a second. It is a place where you can get anything you wish for without any limitations. It is a den of no boundaries and a circle of beyond. Definitely, it is a haven of a dreamer, like me. Hypocrisy will haunt me if I say that I never liked the roller coaster ride in this blissful yet treacherous desert. But things aren't always what they seem. Especially if you inflicted pain to the persons you treasured most and when the whole obsession is an emotional trance. I felt like, I was so unfair and iniquitous, that was the time when I decided to let go. I always say, destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice but at this point I will negate ...
