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851 days ago
My wounds fester and are loathsome because of my sinful folly. My back is filled with searing pain; there's no health in my body . I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan in anguish of heart. Hear my cry for mercy as I call to you for help, as I lift up my hands toward your Most Holy Place. When I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. For day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer. Then I acknowledge my sin to you and did not cover up my inquity. I said, "I will confess my transgression to the Lord" - and you forgive the guilt of my sin. Let your face shine on your servant; save me in your unfailing love. Let me not be put to shame, O Lord, for I have cried out to you; but let the wicked be put to shame and lie silent in the grave. Let their lying lips be silenced, ...
851 days ago
Siiiiiiigh... I was going to relate how delightful my birthday celebration was.. but my dad just had to chose that moment to 'spoke me' (his absolute favourite saying now) <.< So, yea. Great for him to chose the right moment to stab something right into my heart of budding happiness. Maybe not natural happiness, but realistic contentment. I haven't felt such a nice feeling for a while, not after all that had happened. Just great. The only sound I hear is my protesting stomach and typing, plus a radio broadcastor speaking. WHat I felt overwhelms all that I'm hearing, such accusations. Do you know how I feel whenever anyone of my parents accuses me of being the trigger of every of their arguments? Huh? "Its all because of you." "It's all because of you." Do you know the burden I had to carry? Yet I have to stay tough, hold strong, stand tall, look confident so that no one has to worry too much about me? I especially cannot let my juniors know how much ...
854 days ago
Amazing Grace Lyrics "Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound, That saved a wretch like me.... I once was lost but now am found, Was blind, but now, I see. T'was Grace that taught... my heart to fear. And Grace, my fears relieved. How precious did that Grace appear... the hour I first believed. Through many dangers, toils and snares... we have already come. T'was Grace that brought us safe thus far... and Grace will lead us home. The Lord has promised good to me... His word my hope secures. He will my shield and portion be... as long as life endures. When we've been here ten thousand years... bright shining as the sun. We've no less days to sing God's praise... then when we've first begun. "Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound, That saved a wretch like me.... I once was lost but now am found, Was blind, but now, I see. (end) ...
866 days ago
Do you know how empty the words I utter? I'm not saying I keep empty promises, but how hollow I sound, how distant, how unattached, how childish.... Childish for complaining. I don't complain much, because I've learnt to hold it in. If you complain, people's first impression of you is a complainer, a whiner, someone who couldn't handle much responsibility. Do you know a leader is strong, resilient and with the never-give-up mentality? If someone looks up to you, you immediately have the role of someone who can influence, someone who can inspire, someone who can affect the lifes of others. The ones who look to you respect and admire you. They are known to place you high on the rung of ladders in their mind. They see you as you can speak no wrong, you can do no wrong... That's how young children see their parents, how young kids see teachers, mentors, even friends. Do you know what you want in life is to see yourself happy? If we're not happy, we feel the world is ...
868 days ago
I am not happy. My health's deteriorating, I'm not happy in my relationship, I'm not happy with my time-wasting, I'm not happy with how I'm always on the net, I'm not happy how I've always craved friends. What am I afraid of? I'm afriad of loneliness, rejection and feeling guilty. Common human emotions, and it is a signal that something's not right. We rely on these signals to judge for ourselves what should we do to improve this situation. I know it's rather tragically heroic if we stay in those self-pitying sympathy and hope that something of extraordinary hope would encase us and pull us away from the murky depths of darkness in our hearts. We all wish for a miracle. We wish that our loved ones, either human or animal would somehow come back to life. It is not possible, yet not impossible. To come back to life is God's doing. To come back to life from defeat is your move. You move yourself out with God's help. When I say God's help, it is when he sent ...
