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233 days ago
When I was a child, there was only one real form of communication, other than in person, and that was the telephone. The regular, everyone had one - some had party lines (like we did for years after moving upstate New York to live on my maternal Grandfather's land) big receiver on a cradle... rings the same all over type of telephone. It was a big deal when we didn't have to dial any more... touch tone option was so cool! I don't remember cellular phones entering the scene until I was in my teens... they were probably around before then, but not in my life. The original cell phones didn't get reception anywhere other than in the middle of the city, and then only if not blocked by a tall building or lots of steel, and they were huge... you almost needed two hands to hold them to your ear. Actually, as the companies began making cell phones smaller and smaller it seemed un-natural to me... to be smaller than a regular phone's receiver? How could an entire phone be ...
238 days ago
No matter what anyone tells you to prepare you for the love you'll have for your child... no matter how huge they make it sound or what they compare it to... and everyone who is already a mother will spend time telling you what to expect while you're expecting... no one can ever come close to the reality. Actually, I almost felt deficient at first. I was supposed to have this huge feeling wash over me... I was supposed to be overwhelmed by my unrecognizable emotions as soon as I saw my son. What no one tells you is that BECAUSE your emotions are so HUGE... so overwhelming... so unrecognizable because you've never felt anything close to it before... you DON'T know you're having them until much later. Let me explain. While the doctors were opening up my abdomen and taping it to a bar, reaching inside me to wrench my baby out of me, and identifying my baby as "yup, its a boy", I was holding my breath... holding my emotions... holding... holding... ...
239 days ago
I have often thought that babies have a language all their own... they understand what they're saying even though the rest of us don't have much of a clue. As to whether babies understand one another... I think to a certain extent they do, but I don't think actual speech is required... at least, not all the time. I have seen complete (I believe) conversations take place with gestures, small sounds, raised or squinched eyebrows, mouth shapes, and body language between my son and other babies. I say complete conversations because there is an obvious greeting, (Dillon gets a big smile on his face and he says "Heyyyy!!"), the "body" of the communication over a few minutes time, and then an obvious dismissal of eachother... after which both babies have contented, "At least I got my point across" looks on their faces and they move on to the next thing... whatever that may be. As for communication between myself and my son... it's very interesting, ...
242 days ago
I have a friend, "C", who is going to have open heart surgery tomorrow morning. He's a wonderful person, so kind and caring... a good father, a good Christian, a good husband to his wife of almost 31 years, and a good friend to my husband since they were children. My husband, B, used to "run with" C's brother... they were inseparable for many years. When they got older and both had families and responsibilities, my husband (who was not my husband back then) went the way of drugs and drinking, and his buddy went the way of responsible adult, working and taking care of his family... they drifted apart. That was when B got closer to C... they partied together. Years later, after they'd lost contact with one another, B found out that C was saved. For 8 years B had that knowledge in the back of his drunk and drugging mind. Every time he thought he'd like to get out of the party scene... every time he thought that maybe he could do it, he had C in his ...
247 days ago
As I think of the last year and a half of my life I realize that I've not only gone through a lot of changes, physically and emotionally, but also in how I look at life, in how I plan my future, and with regard to what I will and will not accept in my life now. As for physical changes, I went through a pregancy... that was VERY interesting. Getting a bigger tummy than I already have was not such a horrid thing, though being able to legitimately wear maternity clothes was fun... I could finally answer YES to the "are you expecting" question... which I've been asked many times by many people over the years... just because of the way I carry my extra poundage... much of it around my middle. That was a dreaded question for so long... and then I wanted people to ask... I would volunteer the info if those around me just glanced with a question in their eyes... proud to finally be able to say I was pregnant. Strangely enough, though I guess it's because I was ...
