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14 days ago
I dislike being in pain. Being in pain makes every trivial thing seem so big. Things that normally wouldn't bother me have me so irritated. I'm not outwardly grumpy, but I feel like a toddler who is about to have a meltdown because of sensory overload. I need a real break. Could I whine anymore? Jeez.
59 days ago
I have nothing to apologize for. I will not live in guilt over something I am not guilty of. If you have a problem with that, then it is your problem. I am not going to live in bondage over imaginary evils. I am done with your manipulation. I am done playing your blame game. It’s over. My conscience is clear. The end.
112 days ago
I feel like a triangle in a world of rectangles and circles, or maybe like a square peg trying to go through a round hole.
171 days ago
It's all good It's all good *holds head in hands* It's all good It's all good Maybe if I say it enough it will be..... Things aren't bad, but they just seem to be piling up. We were in an accident a two months ago. I'm still recovering for that. Nothing major, we were rear ended and things are mostly fine. I'm just still having some back/neck issues that can cause a fair amount of pain. Mostly no one knows that. Had an MRI. Herniated disc. My dad had surgery last week for prostate cancer. We'll know for sure this week the final results to see if he needs chemo or not. My step-mom is really having a difficult time with this whole thing. My dad is trying to not be bothered by it. The man is stressed out. I'm not sleeping. I'd like to, but it's elusive. I have a number of projects that I'm working on that just don't seem to be getting done as quickly as I'd like. I feel like things are out of control, and I don't know what to do about it but just keep chugging along ...
216 days ago
I've been tutoring my kids. That is going well. I got tickled at one of my boys this week, we were talking about proverbs - sayings. This is approximately how the conversation went. Me: So do you have any? Paul: Any what? Me: *internal eye roll* Sayings....do Koreans have any sayings like, "Time flies when you're having fun"? Paul: No. I stare at him for a minute. I close my eyes briefly, I try looking at him through my closed eyelids, but this does nothing. Blinking . I narrow my eyes. I know he's wanting me to change the subject, but I just can't let go....not yet. So I try again. Me: Surely, in Korea you have a few things you say. Paul: Like what? Me: I don't know, that's why I'm asking you . Paul: Oh. Loooooooooong pause. Me: So do you have any? Paul: Yeah, we have one. Another long pause. Me: Well, what is it? Him: *deep sigh* "It's like giving a pie to a baby." Me: *squinching up my face, possibly closing ...
