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749 days ago
oh god...have you ever wanted someone soo bad, but cant tell them?? god this person is amazing and i wanna tell them...but i cant...it would just be another person to hurt me....another way to cry...but fuck if i just say it whats the worst that could happen?? it would be weird between us when we see each other? i wouldnt let it be...though other people do sometimes haha fuck! why cant life be easy??? i wish i could just say it dammit...but nope..too shy hahaha god im glad people dont actually read these things haha hmmmmm what to do what to do.... meh...oh well nothing to da hahaha *sigh*
896 days ago
mabee i dont want to be your everything, mabee i just wanna be something to you, mabee i am sick of hurting for you, mabee i dont wanna wait for you anymore. mabee im sick of always wondering if she will take my place, of wondering if you might love her more than me, mabee i dont want to live my life in your shadow, mabee i need to be free of your chains. s i can find someone who will hold me, so i can find someone who will make me feel special, even if im not their everything... dammit i cant even write anymore...i need to get out of here...everything is starting to hurt to much...i need a vacation...but honestly where can i go? i dont know anyone in another town that i could be all like hey let me stay there for a day or two..and i cant stay here..everything is too fucked up...mabee.... mabee i want to find someone who wont make me cry all the time....
954 days ago
churning and burning, the tears are falling on the inside, the pains i refuse, the anger i reuse, the confusion i deny, the love i destroy, the help i give up, the friends i lose, the people i throw away, can you love me for me, if i can show you who i am? can you accept my sadness, and still love me with tears streaming down my face? can you fall in love with my smile and my laughter? can you never forget sweet memories of me? will you look back on the sunny days and think of the laughter? will you look back on the rainy days and think of our time to cuddle? ............................................... ..................................................... ......................................................... ............................................................ ...s.o...t.i.r.e.d..n.o.t..f.a.l.l.i.n.g..a.s.l.e.e.p................................. ............................................................ ...
955 days ago
and the one you dream of is not there, and the one you cant hurt is always there, and the one that your thinking of, is not the face of the one you love, and the pain you feel, none can touch none can heal, and the pain you cause, is it worth the ride? and the taste of their lips, do they compare? and the feeling in their arms, does it truly make you happier? and the tears in their eyes, and the shaking in their voice, and the knowledge that you crushed their heart, can only be beaten by the pain you feel, at losing people you know you love, and being hurt by someone you know could never love you, and the reason you beg them to stay, and run to the arms of the one hurting you, and the confusion unravels as you realise, the damage you caused, the pain you brought, and you throw yourself in deeper, thinking it will save you, and you run back to the ones that brings the tears to your eyes, and you continue to try to hide from the truth, until your in ...
