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56 days ago
Hellooooooooooooo out there! WOW!!! It has been almost a year and a half since I have posted here.... and BOY do I have alot of catching up to do lol Well I am not going to post EVERYTHING here tonight, but just a bit of the highlights of what has been going on with my life and then HOPEFULLY I can once again keep up with this blog...... I was doing pretty good for awhile there....I am hoping that TODAY will be the beginning of a good life to come cuz Lord knows I NEED a break! lol Well here is a bit of the highlights of my life I've led since disappearing from here: ****** Got a job with Hertz rent a car in March of 08 ****** Moved in with my brother for 3 months ***** Got my own apartment and lived there for about 4 months ***** while living in my own apartment I had to have emergency sugery to remove my gall bladder which put me behinde in rent ***** Got evicted from that apartment and moved in with a roommate I found on Craigslist in December of 08 ***** ...
573 days ago
Hello all, Well.. I suppose it's time for me to update my bolg ( sorry for falling behind on this)... I am all moved out of the apartment Chuck & I shared & moved in with my brother. Now I am working on settling in a bit. I have a new job working for Hertz Car Rentals. I clean the cars, help move them around town, as well as pick up/drop off customers. I am enjoying the job and am looking forward to staying with the company for a long time. Chuck is moved to Nevada. He is working there and is enjoying his job....We talk daily... if even 4 to 5 times a day if it is possible.. We still love each other verry much and have hopes of our relationship working out no matter what other people say.... although both of us is aware that it is possible that it may not. I had to go to the emergency room yesterday because my right are was hurting... it felt like i had a pinched nerve... and come to find out... that is what they think was going on.. I was put on ...639 days ago
All of this stress is getting to me. I had a very very bad nightmare this morning. The scene- My sister, another person, and me in this small yard...Tiny was there also along with 2 small animals ( like beavers?) and an alligator...there was a door I was able to hide behind....I kept trying to call Tiny to me but it was like she was barking at my sister & wanting to play with her... these beavers were trying to attack us along with the alligator....next thing I know I saw the alligator swoop tiny up in its mouth and all I can hear is yelping...a lot of yelping....it makes me sick to my stomache to type this... when the yealping started, I ran away and at the same time I can hear my sister screaming... oh the pain in my heart... I woke up after that ....I am so glad that was not real.. I love my Tiny so much *sigh*640 days ago
Ok.. SO here is the real and FINAL deal with me & how I see it. My decision is to stay here and move in with my brother. I have talked it over with Chuck and he no longer wishes to be married. So I see that chapter in my life has come to an end eventhough I have tried my hardest for it not to. Oh well.. Marriage is just not for me I suppose. Yes.. I will have to give up my dogs.. Im not sure for how long, but this is a situation beyond my control. Chuck has told me that his dad is NOT paying for his deposit or first months rent at his new apartment. This is news to me as I have no clue how Chuck now seems to be able to afford his first months rent and his 2nd months rent as well as moving expenses. He only has like 2 more weeks before he has to start moving out there..THAT is not MY worry tho... so I freely give that to him :-D My worry: getting another job.. I did apply for a couple places out in Vegas today.. but if they call, I will just have to tell them that my plans have ...
640 days ago
I am soo stressed out. I talked to Chuck today. I felt in talking to him on the phone earlier that something was not right. I finally got out of him what has been on his mind today. ME going to Vegas with him... He is holding against me what has happened with my employment the last few years. He thinks I wont be able to hold a job there. Just because crap has happened to me and I have lost a job the last few years for one reason or another....He asked me if I got a job there and lost it in a few months, what would I do? I told him I would get another... but he doesnt seem to beleive me. Then he goes on to tell me that he no longer cares about the relationship. He no longer wants to be married. He cares about me, but he does not care anymore about the marriage. So here we go again... up ...down....up.....down.....I can almost care less about life anymore... I cant seem to find a job here in Colorado if my life depended on it. No one here wants to hire me.. why? I have no idea...I ...
