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776 days ago
哦，好難受哦！要病不要病是最辛苦的說……哎哎~ 還好今天早上沒事，挨過了課堂報告。還不錯啦，至少我呈現的時候，沒有人睡覺。我已經開始犯職業病了ORZ 哈哈，我竟然會說：“同學們， 你們知道爲什麽嗎？/有人要猜猜嗎？/對了！就是因爲……” 0_0 這是，天生就要走上沾筆的道路嗎？有些事情你不相信是天注定都很難，說真的。 鼻涕一直流……剛才回家的途中莫名其妙頭痛。我的大頭可以預測天氣的說。如果列熱當空的一天，我突然頭痛到要死，呼吸開始出現問題，就是説，要下傾盆大雨咯~~~~~同學， 快把你的小雨傘拿出來唄~~~~~說真的， 我寧願不要這種折磨人的“特異功能”。真的差一點死掉。好可怕。上一次感覺要死，是8歲那年，哮喘病突然發作（我之前從來沒有哮喘的記錄，所以也沒有藥物在身旁。），大家都不知所措，真的感覺要死了。人家問我什麽我有意識可是完全無法回應，很痛苦又說不出來。拜托，不要再讓我這樣死了~~~~ 睡了5個小時，頭還是很重，不是痛，很重就是了。哎哎~~~在這種時刻，我覺得我需要身邊有個男人。哈哈~~~剛才吃飯的時候，耳朵一直嗡嗡叫，大家大聲説話，我的頭更重，很想躲到被窩裏，有人哄我睡覺。哎哎~~~~ 不行啊，如果以後要自己一個人住，自己一個人出外工作，這樣的身子不行啊。如果突然病倒，要怎麽辦？小病ok,大病誰來照顧我啊？很討厭。人爲什麽不能夠獨立呢？獨立就是什麽都可以自己來的意思啊。明明就是得依賴人，海死撐……哎哎~~~身體乖哦， 我知道很久沒帶你跑步了。okok,星期五以前你給我好起來，我帶你跑跑哦。 抱抱啦~~我要抱抱！ 我生病的時候，很喜歡撒嬌。哈哈~~~同樣地，也喜歡語無倫次，瘋瘋癲癲。
785 days ago
I'm in the CLB right now. supposed to be reading my notes, but my eyelids are getting heavy. Z_Z The past week(s?), I've been crossing lines, with people crossing on my lines too. And i'm beginning to see some new perspectives. More importantly, it's really proving what I believe to be true. ************* haven't been into the cinema for a long time. so i sneaked out for a movie last tuesday. caught 881. real good stuff. i'm so into 一人一半. Jibunjibuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......... haha...:P nice costumes and i really love the songs. sometimes, i really wished i was better at my Hokkien. then i wouldn;t have to keep relying on the subtitles. i crossed the line. i went for a movie alone. it's the first time i think, in a cinema. yeah. i usually watch VCDs alone at home. but that's a little different i guess. but hey, the feelings'.........well....not so much of a "sad & melancholic one"..... it's more ...
797 days ago
darn! i'm so glad msn space's working at bullet speed today. i would've died if i didn't get to vomit out what i need to... i was caught by surprise. i really never expected it. it was all too sudden. i was like, stunned and scared. so i logged off. then i logged in again. then it was gone. as suddenly as it appeared, the same way it disappeared. i've got so many questions, so many things i want to tell, i want to ask, i want to say. but i lost my guts somewhere. i cant bear to do what i really want to. i'm so scared. i'm just so scared. it's probably the most ambiguous blog ever. whatever. but have you ever felt so contradicted and caught in a dilemma before? when the words "welcome home" & "i wish u never came back" were like blending into one word " iwishuneverwelcomecamebackhome"...... things are probably gonna be the same for you. but things were never quite the ...
799 days ago
i've been feeling so stressed-out lately, the past weekend was kind of like a complete torture and a real test of just how effective is "mind-over-matter" on me. my family's right about me. they used to call me 睡美人 when i was young. yeah, maybe because i still looked cute until a certain age( sigh), because thereafter i was known as Miss Sleepasaurus(right). But the real reason was, if i don't catch enough sleep on a day-to-day basis, anything, ANYTHING can happen. and then i'll be forced to sleep, i'll be be forced to drop everything and anything that had to be done and go to bed. the past week was kind of a killer. don't ask me why. the workload's the same. the amount of miscellaneous is also relatively the same.i guess i took it too hard upon myself. because i really wanted to do well, score well and basically excel, since i know what i'm capable of. there are some people i really wanna thrash this semester, and there are some things i wanna get even ...
806 days ago
星期一 · 紅色 不知道是什麽原因，就是覺得最近整個人很低落。可能是功課的壓力排山倒海而來，縂覺得自己快要倒下去了，縂覺得自己快要支撐不住了。可是我真得很想把這個學期搞好，很希望能夠順利地過關，甚至抱著成績或許能夠進步的希望。我真的很想在功課上有更好的成就。如果成績不好，未來就會很渺茫。可是我不能放棄，我一定要加油。那是我的夢想。 要不是遇上惹人討厭的老師，或許我會輕鬆一些。真的很看不順眼這些人。 “你們是存心要整死我們的嗎？” 我真的開始懷疑，所謂的大學教育的宗旨、師資、計劃…… 學習，不是應該是一件快樂的事？爲什麽我竟然被這樣的制度搞得苦不堪言？這樣下來，還有什麽意義？ 壓力，我很久沒有感覺到它的逼迫了。 我很想停下來，讓自己休息一下，可是周遭的人事物不允許我這麽做。 我感覺有些累。我感覺壓力。我想發洩。 誰說我堅強？屁啦…… 我想有人能夠秀秀我，sayang我。 很想聼一句 "shhhhh.....everything's gonna be ok"之類的…… 很想有人拍拍、抱抱 可能我把自己逼得太緊了，要求高了，所以現在無法負荷了，累了，快倒了，快垮了。 我只是想盡力、全力以赴、全心全意地學習。卻心有餘而力不足。 很煩。 可是我不能夠就這樣被打倒。 反彈吧，女孩！哈…… 慕慕，我還是那句老話，順其自然 不要把自己逼得太緊了 你畢竟也是人 也需要休息 你本來就沒有比其他人聰明 你一向都是靠著努力和奮鬥熬過來的 你和別人不一樣 你是先鋒隊 打前綫 所以你的生命力很頑強 所以你有逆流的作風 你可以的 你要相信你自己 慢慢來 一點一滴慢慢來 你已經很不錯了 你要應付的那麽多 4年來，都是這樣 你可以的 你的夢想等著你 絕對不要放棄 ...
