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279 days ago
I've been stuck in Santiago waiting for my visa for more than 2 weeks now. It's become so boring here. I'm so worried about my class and my qualifying exam now. I don't know when I can come back. I've thought of coming back to China and taking one semester off since I've already missed so much stuff. But I cannot even make up a plan. And I still need a visa to transit in the airport. I never thought that things could go so bad. Don't know what to say now.
340 days ago
For the ones who sent me gifts, I want to say thank you again. I appreciate your love and I'm grateful to the Lord and you. I'm going to Antarctica for a cruise in the Southern Ocean because of Long Term Ecological Research ( LTER ) one of my professors is involved in. I'm leaving NJ on 12/27/2008 and hopefully coming back on 02/12/2009 if my visa will not be delayed. We'll fly from Newark to Miami and then to Santiago, Chile and finally to Punta Arenas (PA), Chile. There we'll take our ship coming from the Palmer Station, Antarctica. The cruise will be about a month. After that we'll go back from PA and I'll stay a few days in Santiago, Chile to renew my U.S. visa. If everything goes well which I do hope so since I'll be missing so many classes, I'll come back to NJ on 02/12/2009. I was told that we would not be able to use the internet while on the ship except for sending emails from an account given by LTER. Anyway, I'm looking forward to it and ...
446 days ago
I know I have a problem but I cannot see what is that. I never understood YOU because I'm only human. I know I'm limited but YOU made me this way. Forgive me if I say anything wrong because as a creature, that's what I can get. I cannot find justice from this world. I have tried my best but I just can't. I have been trying very hard to trust YOU but now I have to wonder: Do YOU really listen? Or, do YOU care? Have YOU ever cared? I don't know. Probably, hopefully, I've got it all wrong. I just want to be honest.
487 days ago
Life has been slow down a little bit. However before I realize it, one month has gone. "If you could freeze one period of your life, when would that be?" "50, when I met my true lover." "Since 33, after I knew the Lord." "Till now?" "Yes, till now." "Every stage is different. It's hard to say that one stage is happier for me than others. They're just different. You cannot compare." Yes, I cannot compare. You carry your backpack, you come to the Earth, you visit places, you meet people, you grow old. You will leave some day because it's not your home. Was I happier when I was...? Well, it's hard to say. Why didn't I miss you before your number grew too old? I met you in the fall; I left you in the summer. Tears and laughter, sorrow and joy, a matter of memory. Hope love endures. My high school, my college, my graduate school, my always crowded dorms. There we were; here we are. Miss you at the other side of the ...
551 days ago
引用 平安 地震后的第三天，得知曲师兄被困北川之后，杨，我，连累小潘，经历了有史以来最困难的一顿晚餐。分离、病痛、事故、灾祸、死亡——我们揭开伤口，分享着各自成长中最痛苦的回忆——只是经过这一切，可以面对也好，无法触及也罢，我们自己还活着，或有所感知、或麻木顽梗、或脆弱、或坚强的生长着…… 今天，又看到Vincent阔别已久的文字——“墙角的斜阳”…… 当每一个人愿意将自己的伤痛填写到病历卡中的时候，是不是说明，我们已经拥有了获得医治的希望？ 九千，一万，两万八千，三万四千，四万，五万……这不是简单的数据累加，而是5.12地震中瞬间归于无有的生命，是一声声切齿的哀哭，是不计其数破碎的心灵，是那片土地永远无法复原的伤痕。 “为什么会这样？”“老天怎么忍心？”Ms Sun说，死去的人也就罢了，人人终有一死。但对于经历死亡过后活着的人，却需要一个强大的活下去的理由。 残酷的问题把我逼向绝境。面对难以承受的苦难，面对周围的亲人朋友不同方式的离去，面对自己“终有一死”的结局，如何作答？ 给我一个支点，我不想支起地球，只想为那些被黑暗势力捆绑的人们，点燃崭新的永远不会朽坏的希望。 给我一个解释——“ 我赤身出于母胎，也必赤身归回 （约伯记）”——如果我们无法选择生，也无法选择死，如果对于死亡和离别，我们只能无奈忍受，如果我们一切的精神意志智慧情感，都仅仅依附于这具一天天不断衰残的肉体，如果一切都是虚空，都是捕风，那么，我存在的意义是什么？我终日劳苦奔波的目的是什么？我忍受苦难的理由是什么？ 重新仰望天空，审视自己的信仰。才渐渐开始明白神赐给我们的是何等宝贵的永生的盼望。 他藉智慧王所罗门写下传道书： 日光之下一切所做之事都是虚空都是捕风，万事都让人生厌。眼看，看不饱。耳听，听不足。 但神造万物，各按其时成为美好。且把永生放在人的心里。而神自始至终的作为人不能参透。 然而，人在自己的劳碌中享其福，也是神的恩赐。神一切所做的都必永存。 他做这一切，是要人在他面前存敬畏的心。 ...
